Week 51: If It Comes Back It’s Yours.

December 28, 2010 at 7:16 (Uncategorized)

Who am I kidding about getting shit done by just believing? I’m the one standing in my own way! I’ve always been scared of things beyond my control — I’ve always planned for every what if — but I’m seeing now that it’s impossible, it’s delusional and it’s killing me. Life’s just too big for me to get a jump on.

It’s time for an adjustment. I want to to enjoy what I have. I want to live my life out loud. I want to trust myself. I want to not be afraid to fail, to not be afraid to allow others to get close and to live in more moments without anxiety or self doubt. This is the freedom that I deserve, and none of it comes from perfect planning. It comes from going with the flow. From letting go of control and opening myself up to possibility. That’s the joy of life! Possibility! So this year, I’m really going to try to be less of an obstacle. I’m going to do everything within my power to give myself over to uncertainty, randomness, luck of the draw, fate and maybe even happiness.


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